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What Changed Me
Saturday, June 27, 2020 4:44 PM

What Changed Me

Saturday, June 27, 2020 4:44 PM
Saturday, June 27, 2020 4:44 PM

Many of you who know me now would never believe how ultra-conservative I was. I mean for real. Almost bordering on hatred of some "others." I fit perfectly within the right-wing of my party.

I get the Candace Owens and the Allen Wests of the world. I once was one of them. My views of people have changed, and how I view the world has changed in the light of scripture.

Many Christians who make a dramatic change often attribute it to a "Damascus Road" experience. Not me. Mine was not instant and it wasn't any one thing. I'm not a Paul, I'm more like a Peter. Headstrong. Opinionated. So sure of myself -- I was.

God had to take me through my own Acts 10: Years ago, I had an Apostle Peter Acts 10 experience. Then he had to take me through a Luke 22:31-32 experience that really, literally almost took me out. Then my Pastor so patiently counseled me and walked me through with 1 Corinthians 8-10.

So when my Republican friends, my Christian friends, people who knew me before ask what happened to me -- that fiery woman who loved lighting up liberals and Barack Obama and anybody else who didn't fit my conservative view of scripture - all I can say is through a series of events, I changed. Over a period of years in seeking God -- I mean seeking him to the point that nothing else much mattered to me than knowing Him and trying to figure out what all those things meant in my life.

Today I know. God doesn't just call us, He prepares us. And God's preparation is purging, it's brokenness, it's confusing, it's uncomfortable, you don't feel you fit anywhere until you do.

It is a process of ups and downs, progress and failures, falling down and getting back up, victories and devastating defeats. And it has nothing to do with anyone else, but everything to do with you and your relationship with God.

Today, I have never been so sure of anything at any time in my life. I know what I am to do because the Holy Spirit tells me. He shows me as I spend time in the Word and with God.

I thank God for even the life partner he blessed me with in my godly husband, Michael. I couldn't do what I do without him covering me.

Life is a journey. And if you have it figured out and are in it just for you, you will miss life and God's intent for you.

I wish I could say I have it all figured out now. I don't. But what I do know is that I am to love people. ALL people. And my goal is to use every talent, skill, success, failure, experience, knowledge, and ability I have to advance the Kingdom in the system He has long prepared me for - public service, politics, and government.

God made sure I would be prepared. Every success, every failure, every degree, every mistake, every success, every election victory; and, every life and career defeat prepared me, and for that I am thankful.

I am very confident. Not in me, but in the me I have become in Christ. I understand well the system he prepared me for. But even more, I understand the spiritual not just the politics of it.

I have courage because my courage is rooted not in my ego, knowledge, degrees, who I know or who knows me --- but in knowing God and knowing that Jesus lives in me and lives to intercede for me -- even when I mess up and don't get it right --- and there is no greater feeling.

Life is a journey. And if you have it figured out and are in it just for you, you will miss life and God's intent for you.

Today, I have no prejudice, no judgment of people, and as my brother, Peter, often reminds me in Acts 10: 34-35: "I most certainly understand now that God is not one to show partiality, but in every nation the man who fears Him and does what is right is welcome to him."

And so they are to me.

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